SADAKO... 'kaw ba yan?

Sadako

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eto nga pala si Stephanie Ann Shayne G. Gonzaga. s'ya yung kasama ko na nag-videoke showdown hahapon. hehehehe

SMILE!!!

from L-R:
norvie, elvie, john, kid1, sally-boy [with the V sign], marisol with the microphone, kid2, kid3

kewl dude! you don't even know the names of those three kids!
::>anyways, it's not that important. or is it? hehehe
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i think yesterday's going to be the most memorable birthday i'll ever have. although not everyone's present [i called 'em up only when the food arrived just to be sure i have some to serve], at least my bestfriends came.

christen came along with her boyfriend-- jerickson, and her neice [i forgot her name]. too bad. they only came to greet me. they were on their way down south and couldn't stay longer. so i shooed them off. hehehe joke joke joke...

aiza was with tita jo, her mom. and they were just great! i love them both. aiza, christen and i are... we're like the best of friends [are we really?]. doubt not that shit!

and my friend back in primary school-- liza, was also present. we haven't seen each other in the flesh for a long time. and it felt good having our friendship renewed [like a binding, life-time contract, eh].

my bestfriend and playmate since i was 5 years old, norvie was also present to party with us. she had with her her sister.

and last, but not the least, stephanie came and conquered us all with her powerful voice as she sang BEAUTIFUL vii XTINA AGUILERA. hehehe

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Since it's my birthday...

this was taken at Jurong Bird Park. that's me right there on your very screen... the one with the blue cap, with her unnoticeable parrot. that's momma beside me. the girl in red shirt is my cousin angela, next to her with the red 'bird' is my sister len-len, then my cousin joven's girlfriend salvi and my cousin jessica with the white visor.

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it's not a lie. i do celebrate my birthday.
and i'm 19 already... old, eh? anyway, i just want to take this opportunity to thank everyone, who in a way or two has helped me become what i am today. to my detractors, i thank you so much. IOU a lot. no doubt about that shit. hehehe to my critics, merci! remember, the world does not erect stautes for people like you. to my momma and sister, [if ever you'd be able to read this] words alone would never suffice to how grateful i am to The One for having you near me. to the whole pack, i love y'all. to my bestfriends, thank you so much for everything... for sticking it up with me. to those who wanna be ma friend, it's never too late...

and to The One. eventhough at times my faith faltered. The One believed in me still. to thank you is not enough. never would that be enough. my life right now is how you want it to be. i completely surrender.

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since it's my birthday, i kinda thought of posting a picture here that has me in it. anyway, the real size of the picture is quite big. but in my blog, resolution has to be sacrificed. hehehe that's why i, myself, cannot make out my face in here. hehehe

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Idle Hand

look at my hand... and zoom into my index finger dyed with the so-called indelible ink. yup. i, too, have cast my very first vote last May 10 elections.

Mommy, where art thou?

my cute cousin lookin' out...

Gimme your sweet smile, momma!

our vacation at Singapore...

What Are You Looking At?

meet my cat... 'ming'

Manna Tree

a spot at the entrance of Our Lady of Manaoag
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for all we know... this could be the Manna Tree [we] have been
looking for. the tree of life and eternal truth... hehehe

Bagoong Pots

these are pots made of clay. they contain the famous BAGOONG from pangasinan. this is in Lingayen. i took it last april.

Bathed In The Afternoon Sun

this is the door of one of the two rooms in our house in pangasinan, taken in the afternoon.

Hello World...

this was me back in my 'younger' days...

yet again..

i feel like being born into this world for the first time. honestly. the past few days of my life has had me tremendously altered. i have been pondering much, as my previous entry proves, about how my life has changed so far. stop.

i am starting out a new life. after two, long years of wandering in the dark, i have finally found some glimmer of light. i am, hopefully, close to realizing my life's purpose here on earth. [does that sound so creepy to you?] anyways, that is just fine. stop.

honestly, i am changed. stop.

change topic.

something's been bothering me lately. and it's my heart. that's right! she's been bugging me lately about this person from my not-so-distant past. he has come back. apparently with a package-full of goodies! yeah, baby. and now she's begging me to give it a go and dip both my feet into waters at the same time. now ain't that stupid? "only a fool would test the depth of water with both feet."

but really, i don't want to talk about this here.

Pondering About Life

lately, i've been thinking much. so much that i could not sleep sometimes. i have been contemplating much about my life as it is now.

my year kickstarted with a bang! hell yeah! i was in singapore until Chinese New Year. we were so happy then because we were also celebrating my aunt's birthday. a few days after, i suddenly had to rush back to manila. the news of my father's untimely death gave me a shock of a lifetime. but i think i carried everything well until he's been buried. only, i did not think of how his death would somehow change some aspects of my life.

i have accepted that a part of me will always miss him. and i have accepted, too, that somewhere in the mansions of my heart, i may hate him and love him at the same time. only sometimes i could not bear to think that he's gone. that he's really gone. that there's no way i could ever talk to him again and ask for his forgiveness. maybe in time i may be pardoned, only if i learn to forgive myself... soon.

april came and april went... through a magic crystal wheather... and again she has left me with another "passing" memory. the death of my class adviser back in my senior year in secondary school came as another shock to me. no one ever thought that NT had such sickness. besides, no one ever thinks of dying in their prime! so it really came as some surprise to us all.

death, loss, loneliness, pain, hatred... i realized now that everyone has to go through these things at some point in our lives in order for us to learn about the most important things in life... our faith in GOD, relationships [that includes our families], shared happiness and grievances, courage to change things and wisdom to accept the things we can not change.